Archive | February, 2011

I need a goal

28 Feb

I have decided that I need a goal. A workout goal, that is. Recently, my time has been limited, and because of the lack of sleep that is a result of limited time,  I find myself hitting the snooze button more often than I jump out of bed and throw on my workout clothes. Although I believe that sleep is crucial for my overall well-being, my workouts are just as important to me. I get pretty grumpy and feel extra sluggish without them.

While I don’t see any marathons in my future, I am thinking a 5K might be a good goal for me. I have ran a few 5Ks in my lifetime, as well as one 10K…but I did all of them without training. In my case, it truly was mind over matter and finished I all of the races in a decent amount of time, but I know the “not training” method was not the best for my body. As I’m sure every runner would tell me the same. As the weather warms up, I am going to begin searching races in my area. I am doing a couple of races for charity in March and April, but I planned on walking those. I’m thinking May or June might be a good goal for me? I’m not a runner, so getting through a 5K (this time, without cramps or shin splints) will be an accomplishment. Any other non-runners (or runners) want to join me in reaching this goal ;)?

On another note, I am behind (yet again) on the 30 Day Challenge. Today is Day 22, how I’ve changed in the past two years.

As a college student, in this “in-between” part of life, I feel that I’ve changed a lot in the past two years.

I’ve grown stronger in my relationship with my wonderful boyfriend.

With that, I have learned that I cannot always get my way (despite my stubborn ways, he is right sometimes :)), and I have learned to communicate more effectively.

I have changed my major from Elementary Education to Communication Studies. This has allowed me to follow my passion- exploring career options in writing, and landing an internship as an editorial intern.

I have come that much closer to graduating (only two months+a couple of weeks away!).

And I have tried my best to enjoy the journey of it all. I say “tried my best” because I do have perfectionist tendencies (obviously), and I do get upset when things don’t go as I would have hoped. I’m learning to embrace change and the experience of it all as I go along.

I can only hope that the next two years will bring just as much, if more, happiness :).

Do you have any workout goals?/How have you changed in the past two years?

 

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Relax a little

26 Feb

This week has kind of been…blah. I don’t want to be a “Debbie Downer”, but I have only left the house to go to school or work, and the rest of my time has been spent in my room, doing homework. I’ve been justifying egg and cheese sandwiches and cereal as healthy balanced dinners, and eating while simultaneously typing papers and rushing to meet deadlines. One night I was so engrossed in my homework that by the time I looked at the clock it was 9:30pm and I had yet to eat dinner. Everyone keeps reminding me that I “only have 2 1/2 months” left. But when you’re caught up in the moment, it’s sometimes hard to see the larger picture, you know?

Even though I still have a pile of homework waiting to be finished, I have to let myself take a break. I stress myself out too much, and I know that everything will get done, somehow. So, in honor of this “letting myself relax thing” (that everyone tells me I really should try), today I will:

1. Eat a Panera Cinnamon Crunch bagel.

My mom bought five of them yesterday, for our family to eat this morning. Who can pass up a special treat delivered by Mom ;)? Carbs make everything better. Okay, not everything, but you know what I mean.

2. Go to Zumba

Carbs may “make everything better,” but Zumba shows those carbs who’s boss ;). Although taking the time to write this blog post may make me a little late to my class, oops…

3. Eat Panera again

My mom may have stopped in there yesterday, but I did not. I have been craving broccoli cheddar soup since last weekend, and after seeing how stressed out I’ve been, Jordan suggested we go to Panera for lunch today. Is it weird that I look forward to eating soup? Because I do.

4. Do homework

Just a little, with breaks in between. The more I get done today, the less I have to worry about tomorrow.

5. Eat pizza with my family

Every Saturday night my family orders in pizza. We rarely have the chance to eat together any other day of the week because of our busy schedules, so it’s kind of a little tradition of ours.

Yeah, so maybe I plan to eat restaurant food three times today, but that’s part of “relaxing,” isn’t it? And I consider Panera healthy, so it doesn’t completely count :).

I have really got to get going if I’m going to make it to Zumba. Happy Saturday (relax a little)!

A B C, easy as 1 2 3

24 Feb

Sorry if yesterday’s education post seemed too…in your face. I think I was getting a little too carried away, and started writing for the governor, rather than you. I apologize for that :)!

There is an ABC survey circulating around the blog world right now, and since I always like reading fun facts about other bloggers, I’m thinking you might too? After interning and attending a career fair today, I am in the mood for a lighthearted survey. I am also in the mood for putting off my homework 🙂 (I know, I know, what else is new…).

A. Age: 22

B. Bed Size: Twin (I still live at home, don’t judge 🙂)

C. Chore you hate: Sweeping the floor. I used to whine about this when I was little, because I could never get the crumbs in the dustpan, and I continue to dislike this chore today.

D. Dogs: They’re nice to walk with. I walk my boyfriend’s dogs, and then leave them where they belong- at his house. I have pretty bad pet dander allergies, which may or may not be my actual reason for not being an animal person (I used to be afraid of dogs!).

E. Essential start to your day: Breakfast! I always wake up hungry. Sometimes I spend too much time on breakfast, and not enough time getting ready. No time to shave my legs? Oh well, I ate a good breakfast!

F. Favorite Color (s): Green, Pink, Purple

G. Gold or silver: White gold

H. Height: 5′ 6″

I. Instruments you play: Guitar

J. Job title: Full time undergraduate student/ Part time Wellness Editorial Intern

Multitasking at work…an orange makes the morning better 🙂

K. Kids: Love them! I’m just not ready for my own right now…

L. Live: Brownsburg, IN

M. Mom’s Name: Sandie, actually a nickname for “Sandra”. She changed the ending from “y” to “ie” when she was a teenager, and because of this, I never understood why my sisters and I all have “y” endings. Emilie would just look so much cooler ;).

N. Nicknames: Em, Emmy, Goober Bear, Grumpy Bear (the last two are from my boyfriend…obviously he does not know the real me at all 🙂)

O: Overnight hospital stays: Thankfully, none.

P: Pet Peeve: When people chew so loud that I can hear them when they’re next to me (I think I’m just hypersensitive). Or, when people don’t know how to drive correctly (as in, they don’t look both ways before turning, and almost run into you- this has happened to me 3 times this week!)

Q. Quote from a movie: “They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they didn’t agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other everyday. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other.” –The Notebook

R. Right-handed or left-handed: I’m a lefty.

S. Siblings: Two younger sisters (even though I get mistaken for being the younger one because I’m “the shorty”…my sisters are 5’9”!)

Molly, Me, Hilary

T. Time you wake up: 7:15ish during the week and 8 or 8:30 on the weekends

U. Underwear: I get a lot of those Victoria Secret “free panty” cards in the mail and never drive there to redeem them. I really should; it’s a good deal!

V. Vegetables you dislike: Onions.

W. What makes you run late: Traffic…taking the time to eat a big breakfast…struggling to maintain my extremely thick hair…This got stuck in my hair the other day. Sometimes I even lose bobbypins in there (not kidding). And I have broken several “hair things” (hair ties/ rubberbands) because they’re just not strong enough to hold all of my hair.

X-Rays you’ve had: I had X-Rays when I was having issues with my sinsuses,  and then again when I had issues with my tummy, and of course, at the dentist.

Y- Yummy food you make: Oatmeal, pancakes, and any dessert. I love to bake 🙂

Z- Zoo animal favorite: I like seeing the penguins, but if I stay too long I’ll overanalyze the fact that they’re in a tiny “display case.”Even though I’m not an animal person, I hate seeing animals trapped in a cage. I feel claustrophobic for them.

On a final note, today is Day 21 of the blog challenge: one of my favorite shows.

I have been sucked in.

I just can’t get enough of the dating drama.

 

A few facts about you?/Guilty pleasure TV show?

 

 


 

Public education, or lack thereof

24 Feb

I’m not sure where the time went today. I got up at 7:00am this morning, did not get home until 6:30pm, and now it’s nearing midnight. I never used to be a night person, but when I don’t get home until 6:30 it means that I won’t eat dinner until at least 7:00. And after finishing dinner around 7:30 or 8:00,  I still have to blog do homework into the 9 or 10 (or 11) o’clock hour. After homework, I need time to wind down before bed. You get the picture :). Sometimes days just fly by.

Since it is (way) past my bedtime, I will do a quick update on the blog challenge, and then it is lights out for me. Today is Day 20- how important I think education is.

Before studying Communication Studies, I was an Elementary Education major. If that fact alone does not represent my view on the importance of education, I don’t know what else would. What is upsetting to me, is the public education system (or lack thereof a proper one) in this country. I pulled myself out of the teaching program because I knew that my heart was not in it.  I felt, for me, it would have been a selfish act to stay; I knew that I did not see myself dedicating the time and energy that those students deserve on a daily basis. Those students need teachers and administrators who have a better reason for teaching than, ” it’s a 9am-4pm job, with summers and holidays off.” Because if you are teaching the right way, it’s not. It is a job that requires a lot of time and effort. More specifically, a lot of time and effort after the regular 9-4 school hours, on weekends, and in the summer. The truth is (I feel), not everybody in the education system deserves to be there, and the ones that do deserve to be there are not getting the credit (or the paycheck) that they should be receiving.

For any of you who may be doubting my beliefs, take a look at Waiting for Superman when you get the chance (recommended by Oprah, if that influences your decision 🙂) .

It just might change your opinion of U.S. public education.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to bash schools here. I think know education is very important, and that is exactly why I do not think the quality of a child’s education should be based on socioeconomic status or geographic location of a child’s family. Because why shouldn’t every child receive a free education, in a safe environment, with caring and passionate (and knowledgeable) teachers? In a country that stresses “liberty and the pursuit of happiness,” it does not seem like too much to ask.

For those faces, who could disagree?

I know I don’t.

Do you?

 

 

 

 

 

 

On birth control and brats

23 Feb

Is it bad that every time I get in an overly grumpy/emotional mood, or start craving endless amounts of chocolate, I check my birth control pills to see if I can blame it on “that time of the month”? Because I do. And if I’m a week away from the little white placebos, I don’t feel so bad about the extra chocolate that is circulating through my body, or the mid-afternoon cry due to “feeling like a fat blob.” Yeah, I definitely cried  about that on the way to the gym today. It’s no wonder I feel that way though, with all the chocolate I’ve been consuming.

More recently though, I began to wonder if my birth control is to blame for some of my mood swings (when I’m no where near the time of the “little white placebos”). I recently read Chelsey’s blog post about birth control. She had a bad experience with it, and after I started educating myself of the topic, I realized that I may fall into the “bad experience” category, as well.

I began taking the pill about two and half years ago because of pains I had been getting in my lower abdomen since I was about thirteen. My doctor decided to put me on the pill, telling me that if the pains stopped, they were most likely a symptom of endometriosis (the only way to actually test for this is through a laparoscopy, and she didn’t want to resort to that right away). Thankfully, after a month or so, the pain stopped. But everything else was out of control…for at least four months. I had mood swings that made me feel like I was going crazy (just ask my family), my periods were irregular, I had a slight weight gain, and heart palpitations. Although my periods are now regular and my weight is healthy, I still have mood swings that I feel are uncontrollable, and the heart palpitations have yet to go away. After reading that Chelsey also had this side effect while taking a generic of Yaz (also what I am taking), I am beginning to wonder if my chest pains are due to my pill, rather than my anxious mind (I just thought it was anxiety). After having a talk with my mom, and doing little research of my own, I have decided that I will most likely be going off the pill at the end of the month. I can no longer rationalize the extra hormones pumping through my body, and I’m kind of curious to see what will happen if I let my body go back to normal (praying that if the pains come back, they aren’t as bad as they used to be). Unfortunately, I will no longer be able to check my pill pack to justify my mood swings, but I think I can figure that one out on my own ;).

Okay, enough of the girl talk. Let me get back to the blog challenge (it’s been awhile)! I am now on Day 19- disrepecting my parents.

Ah, being the oldest child, the rule-follower, the people pleaser that I am, you would think that I’m always a little angel and would never do anything to hurt my parents, right? Well…maybe. Although I have never done anything extreme to disrespect my parents, I am guilty of little outbursts, resulting in disappointment, here and there.

Yeah, that’s me, ruining the picture with a little head tilt and a tongue. I am the kid who never did anything wrong at school, but would let all of my emotions out at home. It was only natural, I suppose. I was painfully shy around anyone other than my family. This remained true at school, dance class, Girl Scouts, and any other after school activity I happened to be involved in at the time. But at home, I was my (sometimes obnoxious) self. And after bottling up eight or so hours of emotions and energy every day, I would let my feelings go, completely out in the open, at home. Often times, my little outburts resulted in getting sent to my room, which resulted in me saying hurtful things to my parents, almost always things that I never meant (“I hate you” or “You are the meanest in the world”-  did not mean it, and not true).

Does this make me feel bad? Of course it does. I always wanted to be more like my middle sister, the “always considerate and kind” daughter, or my youngest sister, the “too cute to ever hurt anyone’s feelings” daughter. Instead, I was the “oldest child craving to be the center of attention” daughter, annoying my parents, making them say things like, “God brought us the second and the third to reward us for dealing with the first.” Okay, so maybe they don’t say that, but I’ve seen our home videos; they probably should.

So there ya have it. I never stole, never smoked, never skipped school (well, maybe once or twice, but I was at least slightly sick, and my mom called the office for me), never did anything to completely and utterly upset my parents, besides being a bit of brat at times.

I’m lucky that love outweighs “bratty.”

At least, I’m pretty sure it does?

Thoughts about/experiences with birth control? Were you/are you ever “bratty”?

Rainy days and Mondays

21 Feb

It was just one of those days. One of those days that gets you singing “Rainy Days and Mondays” by the Carpenters, or “Manic Monday” by The Bangles, or “Bad Day” by Daniel Powter. I’m pretty sure I know (and all of the traffic that was surrounding me knows…) that I sang all three while driving back and forth to campus today. Sometimes a rainy Monday just calls for screaming singing songs at the top your lungs in the car, ya know?

My long, gloomy Monday has resulted in exhaustion, so I am going to hold off on watching The Bachelor, keep my homework in my backpack until forever tomorrow, put off the blog challenge for one more day, and call it a night.

Source

If only my bed had an ocean view (sigh).

I can dream.

Delicious food and a few facts

19 Feb

Last night I consumed a generous amount of delicious food at The Loft. If you’re ever in the Indianapolis area, I highly recommend it. All of the ingredients are organic and home grown. Although I heard the meat is excellent, I went vegetarian and had a cup of the butternut squash soup and a salad with house dressing.

(Sorry about the photo quality, the lighting was extremely dim)

The soup basically tasted like fall in a cup. I quickly realized that I should have ordered a bowl instead of a cup. It was just that good. I also ordered the flourless chocolate torte, which I scarfed down ate before any photos could be taken. It was so smooth and rich, that it should have been shared between two. My sister and I made the rookie mistake of each ordering our own, but it worked out, because we each shared with our other sister, who ordered ice cream. Next time I plan to try the blackberry ice cream. I’m already talking Jordan into taking me there soon. I received a coupon for “buy 2 entrees get 1 dessert free,” so that’s the argument I’m going with :).

Also yesterday, the lovely Michelle over at Living, Learning, Earning tagged me in this award:

The Rules

1. Link the person who awarded you (check out Michelle’s blog!).

2. Post 7 random facts about yourself.

3. Pass the award on to 7 other bloggers.

Fun, right? So, here we go, 7 random facts:

1. I taught myself to play guitar. My ex-boyfriend taught me the basic chords that I needed to know so that it sounded like I knew what I was doing, and I taught myself the rest. There were also a few lessons thrown in there from my old youth pastor, but I learned that I do perfectly fine with a paperback guitar book and some online help (I save money that way, too!).

2. When I was in fifth grade I won the D.A.R.E. essay contest on why I wanted to remain drug free. Part of my award was having the opportunity to read my essay in front of the fifth grade class and our families. At this time, my teachers started telling me how much potential I had as a writer. Today, I share this story in my interviews :).

3. I don’t like onions. I order everything “with no onions, please,” and if they forget, I almost always send it back. Picking off onions is not fun, and I find that the taste always remains.

4. When I was around this age,

my mom took me out of the stroller while she was shopping in the mall. I wanted to “be a big girl” and walk beside her, but I still had a slight toddle when I walked, and ended up falling onto a clothes rack. This resulted in a deep gash to my forehead, and 40 stitches. Thankfully, my parents had a plastic surgeon do the stitches and there is barely a scar there today.

5. I always have a robe and slippers on hand at my house. Even if I’m already fully dressed. I’m convinced that I’m cold blooded ;).

6. My room is surrounded in photos. Photos of friends, family, and of course, my boyfriend. Because of this, I often buy new, cute frames whenever I see them on sale. I’m reaching the point of too many.

7. My favorite cookbook is The Amish Cook’s Baking Book.

I received it last year for Christmas, and I have worked my way through almost every recipe. Jordan and I were long distance last year, and every weekend I visited him at school I would bring a new treat for him and his roommates to test taste. When they graduated, his roommates actually told me that they were going to miss my baking :).

So, that’s me :). I am going to pass this award along to:

Holly @ The Balance Broad

Kristen @ That Hoosier Girl

Amy @ The Scene From Me

Nicole @ Of Cookies and Carrots

Jess @ A Taste of Confidence

Lauren @ runyogarepeat

Stacie @ Sugar and Sneakers

I should really get out of bed now. My goal was to make it to Zumba this morning, but I have yet to eat breakfast. Thankfully, it looks like it will be a nice day for an outdoor workout!

Happy Saturday!