He Will Be Missed

15 Jan

Around 2:15pm on Friday, I got the call. I was expecting it, anticipating it, really, but I don’t think anything can ever prepare you for hearing the words out loud.

The selfless part of me felt a bit of relief. He’s no longer in pain, no longer sleeping his days away in an unfamiliar nursing home, away from his wife and home, not feeling like himself.

The human part of me burst into tears.

My grandpa passed away.

I’m going to miss the stories he told, the letters he wrote me and spending time together. I’m going to miss the way he ended our goodbyes with “Grandpa loves you”- the same three words he left me with as I left the nursing home in tears, just one week ago.

Although I knew this was coming, I think part of me is still in disbelief. I don’t think it’ll sink in until I go back to Michigan and he’s not there.

I know he’s in a better place, free of all of his pain, but coping with things like this take time. When we left the nursing home last Saturday, he shook Jordan’s hand and said, “See you again real soon.” I know that he’s watching over us, and I believe, one day, years and years from now, we will see each other again.

I love you, Grandpa. You will be missed.


13 Responses to “He Will Be Missed”

  1. Laura @ LauraLikesDesign January 15, 2012 at 5:25 pm #

    Aw, I’m so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time.

  2. Mallory @ Have Your Cake January 15, 2012 at 5:43 pm #

    i’m so sorry, emily. loss is so hard to cope with but you are a strong, smart, beautiful woman who will get through it…i know it! always here for you! ❤

  3. amy January 15, 2012 at 5:45 pm #

    Oh, Emily, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. ❤

  4. Bethany @ Accidental Intentions January 15, 2012 at 6:14 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Emily. One of my grandpas passed away in the summer of 2008, and even though he had been plagued with heart problems for seven years and had basically withered away to nothing from January 2008 to when he died and I knew it was much better that he was no longer suffering, it still hurt to lose him. I’ll be praying for you and your family ❤

  5. Kristen @ notsodomesticated January 15, 2012 at 6:39 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers are coming your way.

  6. Karolina @ CounselorMusings January 15, 2012 at 7:03 pm #

    Oh Emily, I’m so sorry for you and your family! Even when there’s a sense of relief that comes with death, it is still hard for us to deal with on earth. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family over the next days and weeks.

  7. Betty Seip January 15, 2012 at 9:11 pm #

    Emily I am sure your Grandpa is reading this in Heaven and has a smile on his face for the beautiful words you wrote. It will hurt for a while but in time the hurt will go away and you will have wonderful memories. – Love you, Aunt Betty

  8. Caroline January 15, 2012 at 9:29 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss. The tension between feeling relief and feeling heartbroken is definitely a normal one, but it does feel a little awkward trying to balance to the two of them. I felt very similarly when my grandma died in October. However, even when you know that suffering has ended, it’s still painful to have to lose the person you loved and cared about. Peace and strength to you and your family.

  9. Health Freak College Girl January 15, 2012 at 11:34 pm #

    i am so sorry 😦 i’ll keep you and your family in my prayers and thoughts

  10. Brittany @ Itty Bits of Balance January 16, 2012 at 8:16 am #

    Wow. I am truly sorry for your loss ❤ Stay strong and center yourself around family and people who knew your grandpa well! Things will get better, girlie!

  11. Mattie @ Comfy and Confident January 16, 2012 at 11:07 am #

    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family during this sad time.

  12. LeeAnn January 18, 2012 at 10:20 pm #

    I’m so sorry girl. I just lost my grandma to cancer less than 3 weeks ago. It doesn’t feel real. I don’t know if it will feel real anytime soon. It’s hard, regardless of whether or not you expect it. Keep your chin up. Things will get better. He’s watching over you now, always and forever present in your heart. 🙂

  13. Jess@atasteofconfidence January 22, 2012 at 8:39 pm #

    So sorry for your loss hun. Keeping you in my thoughts!

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